Our lifelong healing journey

We feel naturally drawn to sharing with others the valuable insights we have gained during a crucial phase in our own lives. 

Once we start tackling our challenges, like trying to transform a habit or making changes in our life to improve our health and wellbeing, and we see the first signs of success, we start to think about sharing what we have learnt with others. 

Because that what helped us so well could also help them overcoming their own struggles. Such inspiration is always useful, even if only a tiny portion of it is taken away.

Peer deeply into yourself. There is a source of strength that will always spring up, if only you look.

Marcus Aurelius

Whatever resource I tapped into during the past 8 months of my recovery, there was always some hidden truth, some new and useful aspect. So I tried out the advice I found, took away the parts of it that served me and implemented them in my daily life. Building a very individual mosaic of helpful new structures that way – to support and to heal myself.

And it doesn’t matter how obvious some of the learnings might appear in hindsight. When we are ill, desperate or stressed out, we cannot see clearly. The mind is blocked. That’s why it is so essential to hear someone else pointing out the obvious. For me personally, that is often all it takes to turn things around.

Part of the learning and healing process is the eye opener when realizing our own tunnel vision: as if we were the only ones struggling, and all others had it easier. That is of course not so, and in our head we do know it. But it is the feeling which is creeping up and isolating us from ourselves during that difficult time.

The trials we undergo shape our views and self-perceptions. They also make us better coaches or advisors – whatever role we may choose to be of service to others.

A hero is one who heals their own wounds and then shows others how to do the same.

Yung Pueblo

The mission some people have is often borne out of their own problems and life experiences, and the ensuing desire to help others suffer less by sharing their stories. This applies to many inspiring speakers, podcast hosts or authors who have gone through difficult situations in their lives which left a significant impact on them.

Now, they focus on empowering others by helping them grow and giving them agency over their own lives.

When such people openly talk about how much they still struggle themselves while working on their own issues, not only does it increase their credibility but to hear it feels like a sort of relief.

Why is this aspect so particularly important?

We might think that the person in the spotlight has managed to fully heal themselves and moved beyond their problems. We might perceive them as someone who has successfully achieved the peace of mind we aspire to. But there is no such black and white situation. 

Don’t ever think that the author of a helpful book or podcast always handles life’s ups and downs in a successful manner. It’s a common misconception to assume that they have forever transformed their lives. But being human as everyone else they have their very own baggage to carry.

Everyone has their inner voice telling them “not good enough” – no matter how successful that person might appear from the outside. Especially in the face of adversity the “inner saboteur” comes to the surface so easily. 

But listening to their very personal stories of why and how they struggle and what they learnt on their journey makes it easier for us to relate. To have more self-compassion for not living up to our own standards all the time, for making mistakes and feeling frustrated by it. We are indeed not alone.

The moment you accept what troubles you’ve been given, the door will open.

Rumi

It is all about balance. Having an aha-moment and learning from it, working on our habits, messing up and then trying again. And there will always be hard times when life just happens and we fall back into old patterns. The important thing is to realize what is going on, breathe deeply and then bounce back again.

It is constantly about getting back into balance – like being on a balance board. My movement upsets my balance but I try to stay on top of it. That’s what real life movement does. 

Whatever suffering we go through shapes us. In a way, it is a lesson teaching us to approach life in a far more powerful way. Therefore, especially in a difficult situation we need to have trust in ourselves.

Some inspiration from 2 impressive human beings I recently came across:

Inky Johnson:“Looking back at a life-changing situation, people usually ask ‘what did I lose?’ instead of rather asking ‘what did I gain?’” (podcast “School of Greatness”, episode 1483)

Yung Pueblo:“You have to love yourself to change yourself.” This poet and philosopher speaks about the importance of self-love and self-acceptance: going inward and seeing yourself clearly – seeing your truth – is the first step to healing.

More encouragement:

Always remind yourself:
You are not alone. 
Not the only one. 
It will pass. 
Be gentle with yourself.
Trust yourself.

Don’t look at the gap which you still want to close in the future, but rather at all the (small) achievements you have already made in the past weeks and months. You are not the same person anymore, compared to half a year ago. That is progress. We are continuously changing. 

I happily pass on some of the beautiful pearls of wisdom I found in Yung Pueblo’s book “Lighter”:

Be honest with yourself, open and compassionate. Accept yourself unconditionally, look at yourself in a non-judgemental way. That way we can connect closely with ourselves and be whole.
A real sign of progress is when we no longer punish ourselves for our imperfections. 
You are the key to your healing, not time. Hurt, trauma, and dense conditioning will continue sitting in your mind, impacting your emotions and behaviour, until you go inward. What heals is self-love, learning to let go, self-awareness, and building new habits.
Essentials to remember on tough days:
Practice patience
Accept what you feel
Do not punish yourself
Make sure you get good rest
Give yourself ample kindness
Accomplish smaller goals that day
Do things that will calm your mind
A bad moment does not equal a bad life
Struggle can be a space for deep growth
This current discomfort is not permanent.

This amazing book radiates kindness through and through, and a deep knowing that we humans are capable of so much more than we know.


Self-love is a sincere acceptance of the past, an agreement to make the most of the present, and a willingness to allow the best to occur in the future.

Yung Pueblo

Imagining how it would be like to be at peace with myself feels good. Right now it is a fragile notion – like a dream fading away just seconds after waking up – but leaving a certain feeling behind. All I know is that it’s the right path for me so, I’m taking that first step, exploring the unknown.

I encourage you who are reading these lines, to give yourself the space you need and allow all aspects of your personality to exist. That is freedom. Have trust and be curious where the road will take you, and embrace what you can pick up along the way.

We are on a lifelong healing journey and will never be done with learning, evolving and getting to know ourselves – until the end of our lives.

Eventually, I am confident to end up in a place where I am meant to be. 

And so will you.

Do the earth a favour, don’t hide your magic.

Yung Pueblo

Stop – and embrace the unknown

What comes up time and again, staring you in the face?

Your triggers show you what you still need to heal in your life.

What are you afraid of or don’t want to look at or feel that you are incapable of resolving or changing it?

Suffering from exhaustion many weeks after my covid infection last year was over, feeling unsure of myself and insecure, I started questioning my thoughts, my feelings and approaches.

Was it really “true” what I felt? Was I assessing my situation correctly?

The thought of soldiering on nevertheless came up – questioning whether I felt really that bad, and not being sure if my fears were justified. How very strong that impulse was in me, this bad conscience creeping up. How used I was to ignoring the obvious and putting my needs on the back burner.

But the realization of not having control of my life anymore because of constant tiredness was a wakeup call.

My doctor’s advice was “it is important that you accept your situation and don’t fight against it”. 

Let go and accept the inevitable. That was hard for me. I am usually looking ahead and planning ahead as much as I can in my life, striving to always be prepared.

Learn to let go and dare to embrace the unknown. Scary.

“Keeping your energy in a bottle” is a good piece of advice I found from fellow blogger Tamara Kulish – reading her post I realized the very personal dimension it held for me.

Managing the personal energy level well is indeed tricky, as it is important to take a rest before you actually feel exhausted. As someone who had not been listening well to her body, I struggled to pick up on signs. 

The recommendation from my physiotherapist – lying down for 20 minutes every few hours to recharge – turned out to be valuable and workable advice in helping to combat the tiredness. But unlike a phone, my battery still does not fully recharge. So I bear this in mind, even though I could extend the intervals, depending on my activities during the day.

My sleep is still not good which is energy-depleting, but to be capable to sleep you also need to have sufficient energy left at the end of the day, as I learnt.

For things to reveal themselves to us, we need to be ready to abandon our views about them. Thich Nhat Hanh

But the biggest challenge for me was definitely to finally stop ignoring my body’s needs. In fact, I felt somehow disconnected from my body, not being used to closely listen and to do what was needed: like taking breaks, relaxing, refraining from non-stop action in a row.

This was an entirely different game now: slowing down, doing nothing, resting. Not feeling frustrated about “not getting things done” for a change. 

It meant being reasonable and planning my agenda with very large time-buffers. And my agenda was only filled with doctors’ and therapist appointments – well organized, of course, to avoid getting overwhelmed.

Many of us have been running all their lives. Practice stopping. Thich Nhat Hanh

This healing journey on which I still continue to walk opened up new doors to me. Considering all the insights I got from the professionals helping me – it is certainly an ongoing learning journey in that regard. 

Mental and physical health are inextricably connected. 

Breathing techniques and meditation have always helped me, but I also learnt to reset my sleep patterns, and slowly got started on a strict fitness program. 

Lucky enough to be in the capable hands of an ergo-therapist, I acknowledged the importance of energy management. This actually gave me quite a new perspective about how to approach better not only my work activities, but also my private activities.

And I am working with a psychotherapist on my deeply ingrained habits which tend to get into the way – like e.g. going over my boundaries.

Acceptance – of my situation and of myself in all aspects – is key. Not suppressing my fear and my anger, but giving them the space they need.

I am now on the mend and happy about my progress – but aware on the other hand that I am still recovering. Hence, I am exercising patience each day, learning to be very attentive to my body’s signals and being protective of myself.

To share with you my learnings from these past very challenging months:

Listen to your body. The body is wise – don’t question or ignore the signals. Connect with how and what you feel – and follow your needs.

Give yourself the time needed to heal. Drop all your expectations or goals. Just have patience with yourself and the process. Be kind and compassionate with yourself.

Look for help early on – whether it is from professionals, friends, books, podcasts…. You don’t have to walk this path alone, and whatever works for you is good.

Focus on activities that give you energy. Avoid the energy-takers or reduce them to very small amounts.

Trust yourself!

We have more possibilities available in each moment than we realize. Thich Nhat Hanh

Embarking on a new journey

Can I embrace the chaos in my head and in my life? Can I live with ambiguity for a longer time period, knowing that it will persist for quite a while? 

This question put to me some time ago while participating in a Zen Buddhist workshop about psychological flexibility stuck with me.

Change takes time. I need to step away from the urge to move fast, and instead set my own expectations. I myself determine what I want, and only need to live up to that.

I already have moved beyond the point of questioning myself whether I can really do it, because I know I can. Why shouldn’t I, honestly? 

What’s so exciting about it: the learning experience, the insights gained and the inevitable transformation. By applying it to myself and others I can really make a difference. The required technicalities will be figured out along the way. 

Finally, I am moving closer to my purpose!

Aim for the sky, but move slowly, enjoying every step along the way. It is all those little steps that make the journey complete. (Chanda Kochhar)

My preference for people enablement was always there, hidden beneath the surface. It came up more than 10 years ago for the first time, when I realized while attending an internal company training, that enabling others is something I really enjoy. I acknowledged this insight, but did not act on it, because at that time there was no need for changing anything. I wasn’t ready to step out of my comfort zone.

Since then, this topic surfaced time and again. During the last 2 years after starting to support a new team in a different business area, I noticed more and more how happy I felt whenever I could enable others.

It was enablement in a very broad sense: presenting and explaining processes, developing concepts and finding solutions together or sharing my knowledge. 

Advising colleagues on how to deal best with their daily challenges, on communication and setting boundaries. Some conversations were very personal. I often recognized my younger self in them with all my struggles, expectations and frustrations.

It always gave me energy and a sense of accomplishment. It made my day whenever these little islands of useful activities were incorporated into my daily agenda. The feeling to have helped someone just a little bit is priceless.

Do not go where the path may lead, go instead where there is no path and leave a trail. (Ralph Waldo Emerson)

It is no surprise that only when encountering uncertainty, we become open to new opportunities, We notice things that were always there but we did not pay attention to them before. But now we do.

The human factor is and always has been the most important and most valuable to me. Looking back, it runs like a red thread through my past roles and activities up to the present moment. I realized that what I want to do more of is tied to enabling others and helping them grow.

I reached out to colleagues in a people development role to get their advice and to talk things through. The idea of becoming a coach began to cristallize and got stuck in my head. 

Coaching is different than mentoring or giving advice. What fascinates me about it is how a coach can enable the client to find their own answers and take action.

Starting to research different coaching institutes and tracks I decided – considering the broad area of highly interesting educations – that I definitely want to do more than one. 

It’s your road and yours alone, others may walk it with you, but no one can walk it for you. (Rumi)

Would I be any good at it? Could I really be successful at it while working on improving my own communication skills? The voice at the back of my head was there, but not loud enough to hold me back. 

Doing what I enjoy and consider so worthwhile is not going to be necessarily easy – but that is not the point nor could it ever be an obstacle. Embarking on this path feels like the only worthwhile option. 

Encouraging others to uncover their full potential, to become aware of the solution that lies inside them. Giving them an impulse to change perspective and free themselves.

Everyone has a superpower

Of course, we all have our own struggles in life and we do not have to be perfect. We are real people dealing with real life.

In fact, our struggles are our super powers because they make us human and authentic. What we go through in our own lives shapes our self-awareness, enabling us to help others approaching their challenges better.

The education itself will be a big learning experience and a personal transformation for sure. Doing what really matters and is so much needed in the world is a very strong driving force for me.

You are your only limit

Now I am wondering why I didn’t realize earlier where my journey needs to go. But it proves once more how important it is to allow ourselves the time it takes to figure out our own special path to follow. Finding clarity and direction is a process.

The answer always lies within us – by being open and exploring we can uncover it and bring it to the surface. How happy I feel since this door opened is a clear sign that it’s the right thing for me to do.

And of course, I do not have to figure out all the next steps ahead straight away. They will become clearer to me once I start walking on this new path with confidence and joy.

The key to realising a dream is to focus not on success but significance, and then even the small steps and little victories along your path will take on greater meaning. (Oprah Winfrey)

Discovery, awareness and choice – that is what coaching is about. 

Discovering yourself, your strengths and weaknesses, your struggles and their root causes, becoming self-aware, and deciding how to move forward.

Find the answer that lies within you.